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Stephen Abuan
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Hi, I'm Stephen. I draw sometimes.
TL;DR I failed trying to be good at art. I was depressed and started watching anime again. Monogatari series is fucking amazing, you should check out either the novels or the anime adaptation. I'd recommend the latter. Also, there's an edit I made just recently. Look at the bottom.

I haven't put up anything for 5 months, but yeah I still use Deviantart.

I'm pretty sure you don't care what I've been doing all this time I wasn't active since I'm just another stranger from the internet. But if you really do care then I can put your curiosity to rest.

I was having an artist block. Five months ago, when I finally got my hand on a drawing tablet temporarily lent by my Graphic Arts teacher, I thought "I can finally try something new and do all sorts of cool things. This is like totes awesome".

That's what I thought.

Turns out all I was able to do was blindly screw around with Photoshop, and then immediately go on MS Paint and dick around with the airbrush tool. Then I gave back the tablet to my teacher within a week. I was unable to learn anything about digital art. I wasn't able to accomplish anything. It's fucking embarrassing.

I was very well aware that you can't immediately be good at certain things after you do them for the first time. I'm not fucking Saito from Zero no Tsukaima who can fly a fighter jet the moment he sits his ass on it. But the thought of me not being good at something when I thought I could at the slightest chance be good at that something... it made me feel useless. You see, I think like a toddler. If you gave a me a candy and I'm unable to unwrap it, I would probably throw a tantrum and start shitting on the floor.

So right after being depressed for a couple of days, I had to come up with things to do so I'm not just laying down on my bed staring at the ceiling right after I come home from school. I kept on thinking, and thinking, and thinking, and thinking, and thinking.....

Before I knew it, I've already watched 30+ anime shows within 2 months.
Yeah, that's what I've been doing.

The most recent one that I watched was the Monogatari series. I literally just finished it 20 minutes ago prior to when I'm typing this. Best series I ever watched, hands down. It's a well written novel and the anime adaptation takes it to a further level, especially with its eccentric yet beautiful art style (them Shaft head tilts). This is the only anime I know that can turn a seem to be forced fanservice into something symbolic. Actually, no. The whole premise of this anime adaptation is to portray symbolism through subtle visual cues that further carries the narrative. It's that good. If you Google Image it all you're going to see are the female protagonists from the show, making it seem like a boob-fest harem anime. But I'm telling you, it's not. It's fucking amazing beyond words and you'll thank me for telling you to watch it.

10/10 would recommend, would watch again, would show my kids and grandkids


I have a couple of doodles and incomplete sketches that I've made during down times in classes.
I'm also recently trying to actually draw again, though I'm afraid most of them are going to end up in the incomplete pile. We'll see.

7/12/14 Edit
: On a second thought, that's probably impossible for me at the moment. I have no idea where my saved up drawings are. They probably also went when I got rid of my stuff from last school year. I'm also currently lost at the bliss of not doing anything. I do yard work and go run the treadmill from time to time, but whenever I'm not occupied I just lie on my stomach and completely stop moving. This isn't going well for my art career... wherever that is. I'll eventually muster the courage to be resourceful of my time again since I don't have a job. Eventually. Man, it is hard to be a freeloader.
  • Mood: Bliss
  • Listening to: Tristam & Braken - Frame of Mind
  • Watching: Monogatari Series: Second Season (finished)
  • Playing: Diablo 3
  • Eating: Chips Ahoy
  • Drinking: Milk

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akyofire Featured By Owner 5 days ago  New member Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks for the fav :happybounce: 
"Listening to: Tristam & Braken - Frame of Mind" - LOVE THIS SONG!!!
AND monogatari series is awesome! still waiting for hanamonogatari *Free Icon/Emote* Pusheen (So exciting!) 
kuraz08 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem! It's nice to see we have some stuff in common. Also, I see you're a new member. Welcome to DeviantArt! :)

i cant wait for double ponytail kanbaru
RottweilerRage Featured By Owner Jul 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanx for the fav
sHao-taisa Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013   Digital Artist
thanks for the fav ^^
malaladanila Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
Thanks a lot for the favourite, Stephen!
HadesDiosSupremo Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013
:party: Hey! Happy Birthday!! I hope you have an amazing day :party: :iconpresentplz:
igreeny Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2012
Thank you for :+fav: I appreciate that very much :squee:
My FB [link] :)
The-Underwriter Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Professional Writer
Thanks for the fav ! ^^
InAlullaby Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave on "Fatal Attraction" :heart:
Beatific-Design Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012
Thank you for adding The Dark Knight - Alternate Edition to your faves. Appreciate it!
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